Thursday, April 30, 2009


well I really need someone to help me right now, cause I really confused with everything that I want to do, okay I will share my silly dreams that I really wanted right now. is ...


I know it's sound a little bit silly, but that's what I wanted so much, I know it's not easy, if we want something, we have to work really really hard, especially for this. and now the problem is I don't know how I'm gonna start to make my dreams come true, I don't have any friends/cousin that a models or have a same dreams like me, so I don't have anyone to talk to, I have my sister, but every time she talk it's make me more confused. I have thought to take a modeling school, but I don't know what it's look like and where???. I do have a lot's problem to become a model, but I can work on that ( I SHOULD WORK ON THAT )

anyway so if anybody who read this and kindly want to help me, I would really really appreciated, cause I really need help.

Sunday, April 26, 2009

Saturday, April 25, 2009

sometime their murder sometime I let go

a picture that I post to lookbook, yeah my style not far from black and white, that's my favorite colors always :)

today I buy a dress and a vest from ZARA, it's really cute, both of them, I really happy I could bought that. and also I buy girlfriends magazine, actually I want buy nylon new magazine, but I already bought nylon cover lindsay lohan so I can't buy the new one, but relax my sister will buy the new one, she already told me that she WILL buy that one.

today I make tumblr, it's look fun even I'm still not really understand how to used it lol
but I will try.

what song for today? > Lissy trullie - boy boy

Tuesday, April 21, 2009

Time for heroes

I want to post a picture from nylon guys, but it's keep failed to upload, so only one picture I could show you now, I will post the rest of the picture if I could

Sunday, April 19, 2009

looking like a dude can be really cool

10 things you love about yourself

I found this from Ai blog, it's seem interesting to me, but I'm sure it will take a long time to finish this lol :)
okay!, here we go! :

1) I love my family and my whole friends.
even my parents like to fight to each other and I'm not really have a good relationship with my dad, I still love them anyway, I also love my brother and my sister. friends, I'm not type of person that could believe to person so easily, even to my own friends, but I love them, they give me a lots of something important that I could learn for myself.

2) I'm a weird person.
being weird is good, and I love to be weird than be the same like everybody else.

3) I'm animal lover.
I love animal so bad!, especially cat & dog. I always tell to everyone that I met and tread animals just like something that not important to live that their opinion is wrong, I'm not afraid to yelled someone who throw a hot water to cat on the street, that cat is looking for something to eat and that person seem to get annoyed by the cat ( it's true story), I even get mad to a little boy who kick a cat in font of me ( I end up make that kid cry).

4) I love being creative.
well I could say I'm a little creative, but hey! everyone is creative person, I'm sure about that ( like Ai said on her blog :D ), being a creative person is really fun, we could make something that really awesome or unique.

5) I love photography.
I'm proud for being a photographer, even I'm still not really good on that. Photography is really fun and important to me.

6) I've got a good legs lol
I don't know why, but my sister always said that to me, and I'm a little proud about that xD

7) I'm friendly person.
I could get along with any type of people.

8 ) I'm good at English
well not really good, you can see I have trouble with grammar, but I always understand if my teacher teach at my class, and if my friends didn't understand at all she always ask to me. yeah I'm proud about that.

9) I love music
I can't stay away from my ipod so far, that's why my friends said that I love music so much,which I do!

10) I'm ridiculous person
yes I'm! I could make a person who really sad then suddenly make that person laugh her/his ass off lol , I love to make people laughing, cause laughing could be really good for our body.

that's it, that's hard, really hard. anyway I'm done already.
sorry if my grammar really bad in here.

Friday, April 17, 2009

For Lover

he never around me when I needed him
he never wipe my tears when I cry
he never hug me when I feel so cold
he never call me when he out of town

everybody said that you're mess, stupid, and bad
but I think you're mess is really beautifull
and your stupid act always make me smile
and your bad side, well I guess everyone have a bad side, so I don't mind

well you never around me when I needed you
but I could see your news in everywhere
well you you never wipe my tears when I cry
but your song always stop me from crying
well you never hug me when I feel so cold
but I could wear my big sweater and pretend that sweater is you
and you never call me when you out of town
but I could hear you voice from my Ipod

maybe you smoke everyday and I hate that so much
you said that not good to having a lots of smoking and drink coffe
and I hate that too
at past you use crack, drugs, and you can't stop for loving your ex- girlfriends
which I think you still love her right now
but all of that not stoping me for loving you

cause I know you just do what you want to do
and I don't mind any news from magazine that I see
that shit wont stop me from support you

I know you're doing you're best right now
focus on your music
and trying to be more good that you before
but I think you're already good from before
except you drugs and you're cracks

you could say I'm phatetic or stupid
cause I don't care at all
as long I could see you and hear your news
that enough for me

text by myself
photo from Nylon Guys

what I hear right now? What became of the likely lads - the libertines

Saturday, April 11, 2009

Bite me, Lick me, and Kiss me

sushi, it's taste really great
taken by > myself

what I hear right now ? > John Lennon - Love

Wednesday, April 8, 2009

Something or other

I'm wearing The Beatles shirt , leather jacket brown color, black legging, boot, bag from Zara, my canon 450 D and fake glasses.
my camera, the bag and that leather is my birthday present.

Saturday, April 4, 2009

Dear Ophelia

check this blog if you have time, cause it's really a good blog, it's still quite new I guess, but it's great.

Wednesday, April 1, 2009

We set on fire

I'm not using my canon, this a picture before I bought my canon.
that day I was at my cousin wedding , she held her wedding at morning, so it's so bright.
you could see my bad face, I was really bored there, nothing to do except eat a lots of food, to much actually --
and it's really really a bright day, which is so HOT !